<body> Death...the only solution.
Monday, April 28, 2008

for the first time in sem 2.1 i skip PLM lecture... not that i want to skip it on purpose... but i overslept n i dun see the point in goin lecture if im late... so reach school at 11.. had lunch with 2 of my sec fren... it was fun la.. long time never meet did some catching up then back to lect... basically todae all i have in school was lecture n nothing else...

werk was okae except for the part went i was vacumming the fllor of a jetstar... the stupid engineer shut down the engine... n it stops the vacuum from werking as there is no power for it to be started.. gotta wait awhile before continuing my vacuuming..... newae it was so freaking stuffy la todae..... cannot tahan sia... plus all the palne that i went smell of shit... i got no idea why it has that smell... but wat to do.. gotta bear with it as its my job.... newae till then...

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right.. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

attempted suicide at 9:20 AM

Saturday, April 26, 2008

last fridae was a GV night for ASc student... its a follow up from week 0.....the whole thing was very boring... from the process to the end part..... the thing was hosted by mel n leslie... they are okae but the crowd(freshie) are DEAD bunch of people.... the moive shown was oso a boring one as im not into watching such show.... but i still stayed as im one of the log.... but i didnt stay all the way till the end coz i have to go to werk.... but during that moment i got to know some of the freshie but mostly from G5... hopefully they are my classmate for next sem for CellB n HPI......

yestedae was suppose to go to sentosa with valiance... but i didnt coz i juz couldnt wake up as i was tooooooooo tired so im really sorry to all the other valiance as i promise to go but i didnt... so sorry guys.... anyway went i woke up it was time for me to go to werk so that means that i woke up at 8pm... juz did 5 plane...n before my last plane i had a stomachache n i had to cycle from the bay where the plane that i need to clean to the other end of the bay juz to go to the toilet.... newae got to get ready as im meetng my fren later.....

attempted suicide at 5:50 PM

Tuesday, April 22, 2008
PLAN FOR THIS SEMESTER : CLEAR EVERYTHING IN MAIN PAPER; NO SUPP

the first day ofschool which is yesterday was super boring as the first lecture was PLM... its about law of medicine... cannotmake it la.... anyway during that lect... i kena targeted by shahedah the lecturer..... coz i was late for it.... but i dun mind as i dun care...hahah.... anyway after PLM got PUO.... its something like maths but a bit of physic n a bit of PIPC..... very stupid but not bad...and last lecture of the day was OC2.. my favourite... juz hope that i can do it.... anyway after all the 3 lectures i can actually go home but i ddnt as most of the valiance are staying for dinner.. so i oso stayed.... but it was actually a waste of time coz too much tme waste on waiting and it result in some of us had to leave early.... but wth.. what done is done... after the dinner i went home straight n get ready to go to werk..... n FYI i have yet to sleep after came back from werk on monday morning... so otw i slept in the bus n i missed my stop... luckily i took 65 so went to tamp interchange... not very far.... took 65 again to my bustop.... n at werk while waiting for a plane to land i slpet.... yesterdae was very tiring ar... but wat to do need the money..... todae i was late again for school but n it was PUO lecture...n after the lecture i can actually go home if not for MST2 lecture... n i waited all the way till 4pm from 11am..... and at 4 pm i decided not to go to lecture n went home... so i juz wasted 5 hours in school doing nottin when i can go home n sleep for that 5 hour....haiz.... howdumb ca i be.... newae till then... btw did i mention that i will only be graduating in 4.1 n i had to drop my FPath this sem and focus on my retake modules.....

attempted suicide at 1:18 AM

Friday, April 18, 2008

yesterdae was the last day of week 0..... as usual.. business wo the overall n regatta.... but AS manage to win the best cheer... so good job to the AS cheering team... btw AS has won the cheering competition for the 2nd time in a row.... After the whole of the week 0... we the SOF(LOG) came up with a cheer... n it was damn funny....n my LT wanted to go to the jam n hop but after the debrief is over.... the jam n hop is oso over... wth.. but im okae with it as im not into jam n hop as it sux.... so as the rest proceed to eat... i went to pasir ris park for TIMES expo sales BBQ... i tell u it was okae la... i didnt manage to see most of them as i reach dere at 11pm... so reach dere n juz slack with them.....

attempted suicide at 1:04 PM

Thursday, April 17, 2008

so far week O has been great eventhou theres some conflict between the 2 log n oso a log n an OL.... but other then that its great... the 1st day was a chaos but it was nottin that cant be control.... there was shortage of food... but i guess its expected... the 2 day was an overnight programme.... n i was supose to report at 2 but icame at 330 cause im damn tired from werking after the first day of orientation.... anyway the moment i reached TP i went starigth to tembusu as i was suppose to be in the campfire team.... and minutes later... the rain started to pour... all setting of campfire has to stopped... n the food that was there was oso bring back to ASc concourse.... after the rain.. it stop for awhile... n the incharge was thinking will it rain again or not.... n guess wat they decide to build the thing again after they felt that its not gonna rain again....n so there i was with '?' all over my face as they were busy speaking chinese and act as if i was not there...n at that moment i felt like i getting out of there n back to ASc.... but i didnt coz i got responsibility..... anyway after the setting up of that stupid campfire i had to get my stuffs ready for the overnight activity as i was one of the statio master of the game.... n mine was the black boz... it was the best i think... the freshies are made to walk through an obstacle course blindfolded doin stupid thing..... and at the end they had to take out a marble from 6 different container which contain disgusting thing.. at after that i asked them to eat a sweet which i told them it was the thing from the container that they had taken out...all the gerls are scraeming like there no tomorrow...and for the guys they are juz plain spoilers... they ruin the fun in eating the sweet..... newae the sweet is not part ofmy game but i add it in for the excitement.....

around 6am most fo the log are sleepin at the log room... n deres still debrief... after that every LT are asked t to different thing to halp the log clean up.... n dis is where the conflicts begins...... i shall say anything about the conflict as i do not want any conflict from it.. newae went home about 10+.. n the moment i reach home i changed bathe n eat... i was knocked out... luckily i was awake at 9 as i still need to get ready for werk.....haiz....till then...

attempted suicide at 9:27 AM

attempted suicide at 9:07 AM

Monday, April 14, 2008

werking n schooling had really drained too much energy from me... i can really do anything right... but i still had to endure as without werking i will have no income... n without schooling i will have no education... both is important to me right now.... newae all those running from school n werk had cause me to be sick..n im down with fever, cough, cold n sore throat.... newae in a few hours time is the start of week O n im in log... means most odd job to do,..... apart form being a part time cleaner at airport.... haiz...... juz wish that i will get well soon....

attempted suicide at 9:21 AM

Friday, April 11, 2008

yeterdae was 40th day of my late grandmother death.... n the kenduri arwah (no idea what it is in english) will be held today... its only a small thing jus invite some close relatives... n no one else.... on top of that yesterdae was oso my 1 week werking as a cleaner in an airplane..... overall view of the job is that its fun but tiring n oso FOR ME... the cleaning area is too small......

next week is week 0 n my LT has not been finished decorated... so most fo them are like super busy preparing all the stuffs that need to be done... n im sorry for not able to join u guys tomorrow... its not that i dun want but i cant..... so sorry..... anyway hope it can be done by monday... till then....

attempted suicide at 9:11 AM

Thursday, April 10, 2008
( Surat Dari Iblis)

( Surat ini akan membuat anda benar-benar berfikir)
(Sebenarnya surat ini hampir membuatku gila saat aku membacanya, tapi aku harus forwardnya kerna catatan kecil dibawahnya)
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SURAT DARI SETAN UNTUK MU


Aku melihatmu kemarin, saat engkau memulai aktiviti harianmu.

Kau bangun tanpa sujud mengerjakan subuhmu

Bahkan kemudian, kau juga tidak mengucapkan 'Bismillah' sebelum memulai santapanmu, juga tidak sempat mengerjakan shalat Isha sebelum berangkat ketempat tidurmu

Kau benar2 orang yang bersyukur, Aku menyukainya

Aku tak dapat mengungkapkan betapa senangnya aku melihatmu tidak merubah cara hidupmu.

Hai Bodoh, Kamu millikku.

Ingat, kau dan aku sudah bertahun-tahun bersama,

dan aku masih belum bisa benar2 mencintaimu .

Malah aku masih membencimu, karena aku benci Allah.

Aku hanya menggunakanmu untuk membalas dendamku kepada Allah.

Dia sudah mencampakkan aku dari surga, dan aku akan tetap memanfaatkanmu sepanjang masa untuk mebalaskannya

Kau lihat, ALLAH MENYAYANGIMU dan dia masih memiliki rencana-rencana untukmu dihari depan.

Tapi kau sudah menyerahkan hidupmu padaku,

dan aku akan membuat kehidupanmu seperti neraka.

Sehingga kita bisa bersama dua kali dan ini akan menyakiti hati ALLAH

Aku benar-benar berterimakasih padamu, karena aku sudah menunjukkan kepada NYA siapa yang menjadi pengatur dalam hidupmu dalam masa2 yang kita jalani

Kita nonton film 'porno' bersama, memaki orang, mencuri, berbohong, munafik, makan sekenyang-kenyangya, bergosip, manghakimi orang, menghujam orang dari belakang, tidak hormat pada orang tua ,

Tidak menghargai Masjid, berperilaku buruk.

TENTUNYA kau tak ingin meninggalkan ini begitu saja.

Ayuhlah, Hai Bodoh, kita terbakar bersama, selamanya.

Aku masih memiliki rencana2 hangat untuk kita.

Ini hanya merupakansurat penghargaanku untuk mu.

Aku ingin mengucapkan 'TERIMAKASIH' kerana sudah mengizinkanku
memanfaatkan hampir semua masa hidupmu.

Kamu memang sangat mudah dibodohi, aku menertawakanmu.

Saat kau tergoda berbuat dosa kamu menghadiahkan tawa.

Dosa sudah mulai mewarnai hidupmu.

Kamu sudah 20 tahun lebih tua, dan sekarang aku perlu darah muda.

Jadi, pergi dan lanjutkanlah mengajarkan orang-orang muda bagaimana berbuat dosa.

Yang perlu kau lakukan adalah merokok, mabuk-mabukan, berbohong, berjudi, bergosip, dan hiduplah se-egois mungkin.

Lakukan semua ini didepan anak-anak dan mereka akan menirunya.

Begitulah anak-anak .

Baiklah, aku persilakan kau bergerak sekarang.

Aku akan kembali beberapa detik lagi untuk menggoda mu lagi.

Jika kau cukup cerdas, kau akan lari sembunyi, dan bertaubat atas dosa-dosamu.

Dan hidup untuk Allah dengan sisa umurmu yang tinggal sedikit.

Memperingati orang bukan tabiatku, tapi diusiamu sekarang dan tetap melakukan dosa, sepertinya memang agak aneh.

Jangan salah sangka, aku masih tetap membencimu.

Hanya saja kau harus menjadi orng tolol yang lebih baik dimata ALLAH.

Catatan : Jika kau benar2 menyayangiku , kau tak akan memberi surat ini dengan siapapun.

attempted suicide at 9:05 AM

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

im damn tired right now....as im running from places to places..... meaning from school to my house then to werk then back to my house n back to school.... it has been a routine for me for the pass 2 days.... n im really exhausted from it.... but what to do... need to prepare for week ) n earn money.... newae if any of u call me... u wun get thru me as me pp8 got no money and i got no money to top up... s if deres anything juz sms n i will find a phone n reply u all... so sorry about it....

attempted suicide at 9:11 PM

Sunday, April 6, 2008

it was my 2 day at werk n it was my bro off day.. so im still a bit not familiar with the place n gotta werk alone.... but who cares werk is still the same... did 4 plane.... 2 jetstar 2 emirates.... it was quite tiring as i had to do seatbelts n since imbig i gotta squeeze in between the seats.... anyway atmy last plane i was told to stay back as theres no transport..... so juz rest in the office... n guess what i was paid to slack for 2 hrs...hahah.... at 545 went off n took bus 27 to tampines... n waited for 65 mins later board 65... i was wide awake until the bus reach Masjid Alkaff.... i suddenly dozed off..... n i missed my stop... i realized it all thnx to the bus instructor/conductor as he wake me up to check my fare... n luckily it was only in McPherson... if further i got no idea how m i gonna go back as my ezlink no money... i caryy no cash.... n deres nobody at home..... so i think im lucky.... once reach home i bathe n KO-ed till 5pm.... den eat my br8fast, lunch & dinner all in 1...hahah.... den get ready to go to werk again..... haiz... very tiring sia... but wat to do... i want the money....

third day was okae did 5 plane... it was my 1st time doin qatar.. i must say that qatar is the easiet palne i had ever done... coz most of the passenger are sleeping so no need to clean the area that got them.... so lesser place to clean.... till then...

attempted suicide at 8:57 AM

Friday, April 4, 2008

juz return from my 1st night of werk... the werk was okae not so tiring as i only werk for 4 pathetic hours.... n my off day are on wednesday... so if u guyz are planning any overnoght activity... wednesday is the day... so do remember....

attempted suicide at 9:14 AM

juz return from my FTT.. n ihad fail... haiz..... anyway its okae... juz hope that i will pass the nesttie.. anyway gonna be gone for werk in a few minutes... hope that i can adapt.. till then....

attempted suicide at 1:25 AM

Thursday, April 3, 2008

juz return from OLTC yesterday.... the whole OLTC is 4D/3N.... it was dat long but the only fun time is the 1st day n the third day... but watever it is its still tiring.... on the 1st day of the camp i was late as i had to go to arport police department in order to make my airport pass.... from there i bus-ed to TP... n that 1st day of camp was the most tiring day thruout the camp as they cramp lots of activity juz n one day..... but it was fun... the next day was 1st april... it was oso the day of the release of the supp paper result.. n guess wat... i failed all 4 my supp..ahahah... so will be retaking all 4 in the coming sem..haiz.... n den i had to continue with the camp... n t was the most boring day for the camp as mostly are LT simulation... 3rd was fun.... eventhou the morning was quite borin... that night got D&D and it was held in the alumni lounge..... there we played pool dance like crazy however the song...i got no comment.... after which we r suppose to sleep at 2 but most of us didndt as some went out to watch soccer match n some stayed n played poker, bluff, daidi, blackjack.... n last day was okae la... not that bad but since im oreadi tired from the 1st day i got no mood to carry on the camp but i manage to end... n tonight is my 1st day at werk juz hope everythin is alright..... till then...

attempted suicide at 5:37 PM

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